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The Remedy
00:58
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Hungover on the plat form heading to the city
I was struggling from withdrawals so I stopped in The Remedy
Grabbed myself some breakfast
Made myself a checklist
Step 1: I need to pay my dues, call and get some help
Step 2: I need to figure out what I like about myself
Step 3: I need to dig in deep, use a microscope- find the best in me
Because it’s not on the surface
I know I deserve this
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2. |
Chasing Trains
03:46
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The firework fuses were never long enough and we fell fast in love with the thrill
Of running away, turning our heads, jumping over bushes- ripping our knees to shreds
And now we’re walking away
With only memories left
It was all fun and games until we started chasing trains and thanks to all the delays our we are filled
With responsibility that we never had, spending every night lying awake in bed
Dreaming of the days
That are gone and passed
I fell asleep at the wheel down a road heading South of here
Lost track of exits passing by though the cracks in my windshield
When I lay down to die I shouldn’t apologize
To my former self for not living life
When did we become the spitting image of who we said we’d never be- I don’t know
But we’re caught in the web that society weaves, trapped from living lives that we wanna lead
Wasting away
Time we’ll never get back
I fell asleep at the wheel down a road heading South of here
Lost track of exits passing by though the cracks in my windshield
When I lay down to die I shouldn’t apologize
To my former self for not living life
Someone tell me, when is this gonna end?
Aspirations shriveled up dying in Penn
Someone tell me, when is this gonna ned?
I woke up behind the wheel blowing by signs that said to yield
Crossing over solid lines without a turn signal
When I lay down to die I shouldn’t apologize
To my former self for not living life
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Car is a Mess
04:25
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Deep in-between these ears of mine you’ll find a property that’s been sold
Vacancies filled up by anxieties that I can’t control
Passed down to me through family just like this Cherokee
That gets me where I need to go but breaks down occasionally
If you think my car is a mess
Well, than you should see my head
I took that Jeep over two hundred thousand miles
Heading north on i95 crossing over over the state lines
And I can tell you about that engine but it’s been in better shape
Unlike what I drink to numb this pain some things don’t better with age
If you think my car is a mess
Well, than you should see my head
If you think my car (If you think my car is a mess)
Is a wreck (Wait til’ you see my head)
Well, than you (With a question suppressed)
Should see my head (Would I be better off dead?)
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4. |
Angry
03:26
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I’ve been counting down the days, adding up the weeks
From the last time I’ve had a break- a break is all I need
These shifts are stacking up and I’m exhausted
There used to be a time where I always smiled
Laughed about the little things- since then it’s been a while
I liked that part of myself, I hope I haven’t lost it
I hope I haven’t lost it
Why am I so Angry
I can’t take it anymore
I need someone to save me
I’m running out walls to take it out on
It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything but so wrong
Why am I so Angry
Is it the way I feel the need to always apologize
For things I’m not so sorry for- I say sorry all the time
That makes me a door mat
I’m always getting stepped on
But what I can’t change lies behind
Yet I’m always reaching back, back in time
Back through my mind down hills I’ve climbed
Bringing back up what I left behind
And I can’t escape, I’m just running in place
I feel like a hostage, I’m so damn exhausted
I’ve finally lost it
Why am I so Angry
I can’t take it anymore
I need someone to save me
I’m running out walls to take it out on
It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything but so wrong
Why am I so Angry
I don’t want to live a life like that
Always so caught up in the past
I just want to break into the present
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5. |
Bones
02:32
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Darling I have laid it on the line for you
Given everything I have and I swear to god that’s true
But from time to time my insides become pre-disclosed
Leaving all my ill advised decisions exposed
So let’s settle down, and take it back to how things were before
Let’s quit wandering aimlessly opening closed doors
To find skeletons hanging there wearing my old clothes
I’m hiding them as they decompose
Slowly sweeping up the dust that was their bones
I’ve made mistakes, fallen apart, ripped open my chest to fill this empty heart
With regret even though I knew the weight would pull me down
Into a grave I’ll dig myself so deep that no one hears my cries for help
I swear I’ll take that shovel with me deep into the ground
So no one knows what I’m hiding
I’m a man that longer has a conscience he confides in
So let’s settle down, and take it back to how things were before
Let’s quit wandering aimlessly opening closed doors
To find skeletons hanging there wearing my old clothes
I’m hiding them as they decompose
Slowly sweeping up the dust that was their bones
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6. |
Take it Back
04:02
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A piece of me is gone today
I wish had the strength to make it stay
There’s nothing in the hour glass
A sandstorm came and blew away our past
Do you miss the way things used to be?
What went wrong between you and me?
Take it back one step now
I hope you can forgive me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
Take it back one step now
I hope you won’t forget me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
I’ve been out of words for years
My pen was paralyzed by all these fears
With letters piled in the trash
Afraid that you’d never write me back
Do you miss the way things used to be?
What went wrong between you and me?
Take it back one step now
I hope you can forgive me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
Take it back one step now
I hope you won’t forget me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
And I know it’s been a long week
I know because I’ve been losing sleep
Have you ever lost your way
I hope that I can make you stay because I miss you
Take it back one step now
I hope you can forgive me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
Take it back one step now
I hope you won’t forget me
I’m doing everything I can to make things right again
A piece of me is gone today
I wish I had the strength to make it stay
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7. |
Grown
03:45
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The 5:19 train is jam packed
I hold tightly to my back pack
As it rests up on my lap
Just like you would before I left
So now I sit all alone
Between two strangers heading home
I’m not the person that you’ve known
I don’t recognize the reflection that’s my own
I’m sorry that I’m gone
Away from the person you’ve known
But I’m not sorry that, sorry that I’ve grown
Something changed who I was
Without warning and a lack of
Consultation of whom I loved
And suddenly I had enough
Of this life and how I was living it
The world around me and everyone
Including myself turned to stone
Nothing to feel, no feelings to be shown
I’m sorry that I’m gone
Away from the person you’ve known
But I’m not sorry that, sorry that I’ve grown
So I took the bag I had packed in the back of my closet
Slammed the door and left that home
I’m not sorry that I’m gone
Away from the person you’ve known
And I’m not sorry that, sorry that I’ve grown
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Hausman Street
03:27
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A fist fight at a funeral spilling ashes
Split just like the will forever changing photo albums
Bound by a soul gone to heaven
Always preaching love- why can’t they practice their own lessons?
At the Hausman Street Block Party is where angels last have seen
A trace of anything that was remotely close to the values she’d hold
If only you knew then that soon that a casket would close
I tell you now, I’ll never understand
Tragic how these antics come in the worst circumstances
By the biggest fans of a faith that’s built on second chances
Throwing words and pointing words make you worse than all the sinners
You damn underneath your breath like the pride that you guard
We’re supposed to be together why are you tearing us apart
At the Hausman Street Block Party is where angels last have seen
A trace of anything that was remotely close to the values she’d hold
If only you knew then that soon that a casket would close
I tell you now, I’ll never understand
How you hold a grudge tighter than you ever did her hand
It’s hard to see how you line the pews
To paint in sunny skies around the darkest portraits of you
Would she be proud?
At the Hausman Street Block Party is where angels last have seen
A trace of anything that was remotely close to the values she’d hold
If only you knew then that soon that a casket would close
At the Hausman Street Block Party is where I see ghost of what I miss the most
(Our flags they wave, casting shade on what I miss the most)
A voice inside my mind that’s faded with time
(I hope silhouettes don’t make a mess)
I hope to hear again when my casket does close
I tell you now, I’ll never understand
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9. |
Decades
04:24
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The fire we’d bring singing all of the songs that we used to sing
With those who mean everything, those nights mean the world to me
Yea, we were young in backseats or Dave’s garage coughing out our lungs
With our ties unstrung, all of our worries gone
We’re only a few decades passed
Why aren’t we living life like it’s our last
When it’s all said and done all we have is our epitaph
Forest City Park, hiding out in the dark running from the cops
Fears of getting caught were never enough to make us stop
It was routine, skinny dip in the town pool and smell of chlorine
Until the next morning- we didn’t think through anything
We’re only a few decades passed
Why aren’t we living life like it’s our last
When it’s all said and done all we have is our epitaph
When a few more decades pass
Memories like these will be the ones that last
When it’s all said and done all we have is our epitaph
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10. |
Meet Me in Brooklyn
03:51
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Meet me in Brooklyn, I’ll sleep on the floor
Because who you wake up with matters so much more
Than the support that your spine has as we lay and let time pass
Staring out of your window
I don’t wanna wait until tomorrow when all I gotta do is take the Q downtown and follow
The directions you gave me from sitting at The Remedy
It’s scribbled in ink on a napkin
And I realize I’m so lucky to have this
And if I lose my way to you my heart will be an atlas
Meet me in Brooklyn, I’ll sleep on the floor
Because who you wake up with matters so much more
Than the support that your spine has as we lay and let time pass
Staring out of your window
You can use my chest as your pillow
I’d never let you know but sometimes I read old conversations when I want to hear your words but just don’t have the patience
Until we meet again, I’ve dreamed since December of the Kosciusko views that we’ll see together
And I realize that I’m so lucky to have this
The MTA may have delays but I know that we’ll get passed this
Meet me in Brooklyn, I’ll sleep on the floor
Because who you wake up with matters so much more
Than the support that your spine has as we lay and let time pass
Staring out of your window
You can use my chest as your pillow
I can wait another day, we both need space and that’s okay
I finally feel I’m in a better place, at terms with this life I’ve made
So meet me in Brooklyn I’ll sleep on your loor
Because who you wake up with matters so much more
Than the support that your spine has as we lay and let time pass
Staring out of your window
You can use my chest as your-
Meet me in Brooklyn (Meet him in Brooklyn)
Meet me in Brooklyn (Meet him in Brooklyn)
Meet me in Brooklyn (Meet him in Brooklyn)
Meet me in Brooklyn
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